Ok, so I've decided to journal my fitness and health goals here. I've seen many other journals and I think this might help me with accountability and motivation. As I type this my 4 yr old daughter is sick on the couch. As a single mother, the relief is not much time to myself and NO gym time. In a way that's ok with me though, this past few weeks have been hard to motivate. Ok who am I kidding, this whole friggin winter has been hard. I struggle with food. I use it as a real control tool, when I'm in control I've got a great body and things are ok, but that kind of living is not sustainable and its been proven time and time again. I then go back to binge eating. I've gained a little weight, but most importantly my body composition has changed. I want to do this the right way, to lose body fat and gain muscle without starving myself. Is this possible? I think so, but i really need to stop the overeating at night. That seems to be most people's problems, but I am alone at night, stuck inside because I am a mother ...
I am fit. I know I am, I'm not in horrible shape, I just am not in the shape I would like to be in. My goals are to lose some bodyfat and feel good ... not so damn heavy. Although with the disordered eating and perception of myself, this might be a harder task then i thought.
OOps, girly is waking up ... till later
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