Day 1 UD2 Prep

Ok,
So I've decided that NROL4W was just not my thing. I learned a lot and did a lot of great things, but I need more. I found the diet was really too much and ended up screwing me up. I have HUGE emotional issues around food and I know them so when a diet told me I can eat up to 2000 calories, well I did. I've now gained weight and need to take off the fat. So this week is prep to start the UD2. I have some major carb cutting to do, this week its to stay around 100g a day.

My biggest issue?? POPCORN , I know sounds simple right, like who the hell can't give up popcorn. Apparently me, well right now anyway. I would say my diet is otherwise pretty good, just too many calories in general ... and the damn popcorn.

So I'll post food at the end of the day.

yay!

So I started the workouts today and it went quite well. Since being sick I've been a little afraid of working out hard, like it was going to set me back again. That's happened before, I think I'm ok and as soon as I work out the cold comes back. Ok so here is today. Nutrition has not been great, but I"m working on it

2 sets - 15 reps
Squat - oly bar +25 on each side! I knew i could do more
Pushups - feet on step
Seated Row 100lbs [50kg]
Step-up - 25 lb dumbells
Prone Jackknife - 12 reps, 2 sets

phew

Meal plan, Monday May 12

Planning ahead:

Breakfast- 1/3 cup oats, 1/5 cup froz blueberries, 1 tsp Peanut Butter, 20 grams of chocolate protein
mid morning snack - homemade protein bar
lunch - greek salad with chicken
afternoon snack - pepper with hummus
Workout
Post workout protein shake
Dinner tuna burger and broccoli and fish oils

Should be good, going to buy ingredients today!

oh and I will post some before pics too!

NROL4W stage 1

I must admit it, I feel like starting at stage 1 is going backwards for me, but then again I've been out of the gym for close to 3 weeks so I guess I am starting back at the basics. I went to the gym on Thursayd but completly FORGOT the program at home. I tried to work from memory but that wasn't happening well. So this is what I did

Squat - smith machine [I hate this machine] 2 sets, 15 reps, 60lbs [OUCH! I can do more then this, I need to up that weight big time]
Deadlift - 70 lbs
Pushups - 2 sets ,15 reps, feet on bench
Step ups, 4 risers on step, 25 lbs in each hand
Jackknife abs

And since then I haven't been able to workout. I caught my daughter's cold and she has had on and off fever. I can't bring her to the gym like that and her dad is not around enough to watch her for me [I know I know, other issues there]. I'm hoping to start up with workout B tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be my first day of New Rules of Lifting for Women. I must say I did a shitty thing tonight and had another binge session, thinking it will be ok because starting tomorrow i'm going to do the plan. I hate thinking like that, it puts so much pressure on me. However, I do know that was my last, regardless of if I do the plan or not. This feeling sucks. I threw out all bingable foods and am starting fresh tomorrow. I'll post my stats and workout journey here tomorrow

First post

Ok, so I've decided to journal my fitness and health goals here. I've seen many other journals and I think this might help me with accountability and motivation. As I type this my 4 yr old daughter is sick on the couch. As a single mother, the relief is not much time to myself and NO gym time. In a way that's ok with me though, this past few weeks have been hard to motivate. Ok who am I kidding, this whole friggin winter has been hard. I struggle with food. I use it as a real control tool, when I'm in control I've got a great body and things are ok, but that kind of living is not sustainable and its been proven time and time again. I then go back to binge eating. I've gained a little weight, but most importantly my body composition has changed. I want to do this the right way, to lose body fat and gain muscle without starving myself. Is this possible? I think so, but i really need to stop the overeating at night. That seems to be most people's problems, but I am alone at night, stuck inside because I am a mother ...

I am fit. I know I am, I'm not in horrible shape, I just am not in the shape I would like to be in. My goals are to lose some bodyfat and feel good ... not so damn heavy. Although with the disordered eating and perception of myself, this might be a harder task then i thought.

OOps, girly is waking up ... till later